Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Painful Faith

I am so excited about this blog... I have to tell all of you that have already posted, THANK YOU! You are all amazing and have such great faith and strong testimonies, and have have strengthened mine by reading. Michael and I have not been very good about reading our scriptures together. We get really good, and then fall out of the habit. Why is it so easy to fall out of it, but to hard to get back in?

Well, as a little background, Michael deals with chronic sacroiliac joint pain, which no doctors have been able to get rid of. He has been through so many painful procedures in the HOPE that something will lessen or get rid of his pain. Having constant pain and no relief really tries us, mostly him obviously. But I feel so incredibly helpless! On top of this back pain, he also was diagnosed with Ciliac disease about 2.5 years ago... so he cannot have any wheat, oats, rye or barley, which is in EVERYTHING it seems. (I hope I'm not sounding like I need sympothy...sorry).

Last night, with a new goal of reading our scriptures together, we decided to just open up the scriptures and start reading from whenever. Matt 9, what an awesome chapter. Now, I've heard growing up people saying how when they've had a problem they've just opened their scriptures and found an answer... I've tried this in the past, but not with any real luck. We weren't looking for any answers or anything out of the ordinary, just to start doing what we know we are supposed to be doing to strengthen our faith and grow closer to Heavenly Father, I mean, who doesn't want more blessings :) Boy did I get a heartful! The chapter is about Jesus healing people from their illnesses, casting out devils, and preaching the gospel of course. We read about the woman who had a disease with an issue of blood for 12 years came to see Jesus... and then we read "If I may but touch his garment, I shall be whole. But Jesus turned him about, and when he saw her, he said 'Daughter, be of good comfort; thy faith hath made me whole. And the woman was made whole from that hour.'" I really didn't hear the rest of the chapter because I was just so touched by the spirit that I was crying. I believe in miracles, and I know that Michael could be healed this second, but for whatever reason, He has not. I know that one day he will be whole. Our bodies will be perfect after the resurrection; we just have to keep an Eternal perspective! I am so thankful for faith, and for my Saviour who truly lifts our burdens and makes them easier to bare. All He asks for is simple faith!


Laurie said...

Eternal perspective... That's what I've needed lately! Thanks for this post!!

Sue and Mark said...

You are not alone..My husband has had a sickness that has lasted over 9 yrs..The Dr. said he got a virus that attacked his nervous system..He has had chronic pain ever since. Every priesthood blessing he's had has said the same thing."You will get better, but it will take a long time"..This has been sooo hard. The thing that has helped me the most besides prayer, has been temple service...Nothing has changed my life more than going to the temple often.
I've had children that have struggled..I went to the temple every week for a year, for that particular child.I cannot tell you all the miracles that have happened.
We can't fail until we give up..I will never give up believing that God can and will perform miracles when he thinks the time is right..

CompleteLee Blogger said...

Kyla, you might want to take a look at my sister's blog Especially her entry entitled "The Way We Eat" from June. Her daughter had experienced celiac like symptoms. Now, after eating a gluten free, healthy diet for years, she is much better. Anyway, she has a lot of healthy and tasty recipes there, many of which are free from the typical allergy grains you mentioned. Hope that is helpful.

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